Monday, March 5, 2012

EXTRA EXTRA GET YOUR FREE BIRTH CONTROL!! on my dime!!!

REALLY? I have finally sat down and read this thing about a Georgetown student wanting her birth control paid for my tax payers while in school!! REALLY? Why don't you ask mommy and daddy who are paying 40k a year for your tuition or even the dude your humping to spare a quarter so you can hit up the gas station bathroom to get a condom???? But soon the supply lists for schools will read 1. Pencils, box of 50 thousand because what is yours is everyone elses too. 2. Notebook paper, 100k sheets because we said so. 3. Markers 100 count because although we will never use them..they look good on the list. 4. Extra large ribbed condoms, 100 count birth control and wine, you know, to set the mood! Seriously? Stop having sex if you can't afford to protect yourself! If you get pregnant or coochie critters or AIDS for that matter, it isn't my problem! STOP BENG IRRISPONSIBLE!! EVERYTHING IS FREE AT THE HEALTH DPT or FREE CLINIC...hence the word FREE!!!!

Soon everything in this country will be free and we will not have the pride of actually earning the things we have! I have always been taught that if you want something, work for it, don't expect it to be handed to you. WOW how things have changed!! I am pretty positive that I could go out and get free rent, groceries, and utilities, and even have my cell phone bill paid! Grated there are those that need it but these things were not created as a permanent fix but as a temporary safety net until you can do it for yourself...seems like everyone has gotten so lazy that they are just going to bleed the help dry..and my hard earned tax money as well...what a shame.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Can't sleep

It is 1:41 am and I am wide awake! I did not have any tea today so I am not sure why! The family and I went for a bike ride today..BIG MISTAKE! It was HOTT AS HELL outside! We wont be doing that again til at least fall lol...I thought I had heat stroke!

Anyway, we are considering going active duty army. I love the life and my husband loves to fly so it works. The schools are awesome which is NUMERO UNO on my list of "MUSTS"!

Apparently I have the most random thoughts at 1am :-)

I am thinking of paiting the kids bathroom something other than hideous apartment white! Needs a boost I think...maybe blue or green. Something bright and cheerful. The theme is montsers...just random monsters and silly faces. Very cute..at least the kiddos think so!

We are headed to the pool early in the morning to avoid the crazies...the smoke and beer drinking 24/7 is just too much to deal with so I think we will avoid it!

I knew blogging would help me become sleepy..I am not sure what that says about me..maybe I am boring LOL nite Bloggsville!!!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Since the last time I blogged...

Alot has happened since the last time I blogged....

Right before my husband returned from Iraq I got into a heated and much expected email war with the FRG leader at my husbands old (old is right...keep reading). She is a sweet woman but has no clue about much of anything. None of us wives had heard from her at all during the deployment...she raised funds but where are they? She finally decides at the end of this LONG deployment to try to be friends with everyone! I send her an email with my thoughts and constructive critism ;-) and I get an much expected rant back. She whined about her family and having a new baby, she was pregnant when she took the job which is a red flag when your no pro at this stuff. HA what made my day was when she ran to her husband, who was still in iraq, and cried about me, the big mean bully. He confronts my husband LOL who said "you are coming to me, in Iraq, about a argument between wives? Since when should we care? I do not control my wife she has a mind and a MOUTH of her own ;-)". MAIN REASON I LOVE THIS MAN, he has never tried to make me be anything other than myself. Anyway, in her case, I guess when your hubby has a little rank and you are a complete idiot it is ok to use his rank to make you look worth a damn! Well needless to say we aren't BFF LOL

I found out before we left that the reason I was not getting pregnant was because I have PCOS, polycystic ovarian syndrome. We were sad at this discovery but knows that GOD has a reason for everything. I do have some pain but take Motrin which helps!

Anyway, so the hubs came home from this deployment for good around Feb. of this year. By the first of May we have made the move to Mississippi, which has turned out to be ok so far. He is making the commute to the Arkansas National Guard unit and they seem to be really cool people according to DH. I am happy if he is happy. He transfered to a Costco in the area. He seems to like it. Apparently he gets praised for his speed because he puts others shame.

We live in an apartment which is very nice. Pool, playground, workout room, which might I add is awesome to look at :-). The kids have made friends which is all I ever really wanted in a place to live. They need to be kids with other kids. The people here are nice, with the exception of a few special people that just make you question how they have made it this far. I have not made any close friends because it is hard for me to trust people.

My son has made amazing progress with his autism, you can not even tell there was even an issue. My daughter is growing to fast. She will be in kindergarten this year. Bittersweet.

I am currently looking for work so that I am not sitting at home alone..while everyone is at work or school. I am in college full time with the University of Phoenix. So far so good, GPA 3.6 :-)

I am hoping to be able to spend more time on my blog so stand tuned if there is anyone out there reading this...if not..then at least I have somewhere to write down my thoughts :-)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

To The Finish Line We Go...

Anyone know how hard it is to be a military spouse, a mother, a full time student, and try to stay sane in the process? I do have to say that I am DAMN PROUD of myself for making it through this deployment on my own without family and a lot of help. I have to be honest, on day one of this journey I didn't know how I would do it but we are creeping up on day 345 of this long deployment and I have never felt stronger and more confident in my whole life...I am proud of myself and any other military spouse out there that is fighting this fight everyday!!

There are a lot of things that I have witnessed this last year that I don't agree with and even things that have brought me joy. I have been criticized for being opinionated and loud when it comes to what I believe in. I think this makes me stronger, the only people that would complain are those that feel threatened. I don't want anyone to be threatened by me however I DO want them to know that I will not back down when it comes to something I believe in. I try to be open minded and listen but as soon as the person starts sounding like an ass my "idiot shield"goes up and then all I hear is Charlie Browns teacher LOL!!


I have come to learn that no matter what the case, if your spouse is deploys so does half of your heart, just like the bumper sticker says. I was at a store once waiting in a 20 deep line during Christmas and a lady noticed my military I.D. and preceded to ask me a million questions, which I didn't mind. Her questions kept my mind of the fact that my kids were about to have a melt down. How do you manage your life knowing your husband is in Iraq and could die? I said I try not to think of those things. I push on knowing he will be home soon. She also asked me if I felt bad for putting my kids through a deployment. I had actually never thought about that but I told her that military kids are probably some of the strongest kids you'll ever meet and that it is a learning experience for them. Their daddy is a hero and he has to leave sometimes to go help people that can't help themselves. She also mentioned something that was very odd, she said she felt sorry for the children of deployments but not the single wives, like somehow they were a whole different being. I told her that was NOT FAIR. How do you think it feels laying in an empty bed let alone a house? No children to keep you going. THEY are literally alone. They hurt just as much as me or any other wife. She seemed to understand. I never seen her again. I am almost glad because I was trying very hard not to tell her to get a clue.



Something I will never forget are the joys that were thrown my way during our journey this past year. My son has done amazing dealing with his mild autism. He has grown to be the man of the house while dad is gone. People said he would be behind in school and need help!! According to the last report card he is doing amazing and even talks about being a helicopter pilot!! My daughter, where do I start LOL!!?? She is growing way to fast for my liking. I want to hold her like a baby and she tells me that she is NO BABY!! She is all grown up and it is bittersweet for me. Her daddy too because he is missing it all!! She asks me everyday, "Where the heck is that helicopter with my daddy on it?" My children have kept leveled. When I felt like this deployment got the best of me they took me by the hand and said "mommy I love you". On a lighter note, this deployment has taught me that, when you first burn dinner, try try again!! because of this I have become a great cook, if I do say so myself! My kids are thankful for the last part..I seen a hunger strike in their future LOL. I have gotten several makeovers courtesy of my daughter, and I have to say that when you are feeling down and out and missing your hubby, nothing makes you laugh more than seeing how your face looks after your 5 year gets ahold of it!! They make my life better and without them I don't think I would have made it!! Just seeing how strong my children have been this whole deployment has made me feel proud to be their mother!! Another joy most take for granted is hearing my husbands voice and the most needing time. All I need to hear is that 2 second delayed "Hello there, how are you?" and my day is better by far. I try not to spend a majority of my day thinking of him because it just makes me cry. Then I think of all the goofy things he says and does, his hugs, his love for me, then I start to feel better. He is my heart, my hero, my soldier.



"Military relationships are the product of many tears born both in happiness and in despair, nights alone wondering where he is, if he's safe. It's looking at pictures, knowing thats the only way I can see his face, calling my voicemail to hear his voice, and not washing his clothes until they've lost his scent. But it's all worth it in the end, because I know I have one of the purest loves in the world because my Soldier truly knows the meaning of Honor, Courage, and Commitment, not only to the U.S. Army, but to me. And THAT makes everything worthwhile." (Unknown)


Monday, July 20, 2009

stupid moms

I wrote this a few months ago


Why do you insist on pissing me off in the mornning???

1.I have 2 kids and I can manage to have my kids dressed before we leave the house, why cant you?

2.PLEASE PULL FORWARD...dont block everyone behind you...we have places to go and things to do...unlike you who will probobly go home and watch soap operas!!! EX. when i drop my daughter off at her preschool...you have to pull around in like a circle, OR you can park!! well this BITCH decides to stop right at the turn...and block us all from going around. We all have bigger rigs and we cant get around enough to park. She gets her idiot ass out of the car to release her bratts. then she walks them in the school with her van still parked there...I WAS HEATED!! Then after she finally comes out 5 minutes later...she pulled only like 10 feets forward and perceeded to talk to another idiot mom in her van!!! I got behind her and she motioned me to go around, which would mean i go into the grass!!! FUCK THAT AND FUCK HER!! I dont know who she thinks she is, so I got right behind her and layed on my horn!!!!! SHE WAS SOO EMBARASSED!! YES SCORE LOL!!! MY PLAN WORKED!!Then she leaves in front of me and I follow her, because my house in on the other side of town, which is near her home, and no I didnt follow her on purpose, where she gets out of her van and hurrys over to light her cigarette and plop down in her recliner that is on her porch!!!POINTLESS EXISTANCE!!

3. PLEASE!! If you insist on smoking yourself into a grave....do it before you get into a car with your kids...and dont roll up the windows. I have no sympathy for you and your hacking and loss of breath because you have to walk into the school from your smoke filled car.

4. Dont expect me to get up from my nice cozy bench that I am sitting on so that you can sit your baby factory down. I'm not sympathetic to you because you are tired from having 58 kids and are still pregnant!! NOT MY PROBLEM!! Its bad enough that I will be paying for them with my tax dollars when you apply for HOUSING, FOOD STAMPS, WIC!! Please don't ever expect me to let you sit down. There are people that deserve that help and you ruin it for them cause you can't stop procreating!!

5.Can you please dress a little more like a mom and less like "your stripping job requires you too". I dont need to see your ass and neither do my kids. If I can see the jiggle of your asscheecks...Im sure thats too much!! Im not perfect and have some jiggle but DAMN COME ON!! When your kids wont walk with you its because they are ASHAMED OF YOU!!!

6.CAN YOU PLEASE SLOW THE HELL DOWN ON A RESIDENTIAL STREET!! My street speed limit is 25, which is probobly right for most residential areas!! If I cant tell the make or model of your vehicle and you are passing me in my driveway...YOU ARE GOING TO FAST STUPID!! and you wonder why there is cop and the end of the street!! CAUSE I CALLED THEM...I have seen 3 kiddos almost get hit crossing the street because your in a FUCKING HURRY!!

7.Please stop thinking that everyone owes you something (see4). Its bad enough that I have to pay 50 bucks for school supplies for both of my kids but the fact that they cant use it because it is now "community supplies" REALLY MAKES ME MAD!! Stop getting your nails done and buying ugly clothes that arent worth the money and buy some pencils or something. There are some families out there that scratch to buy that stuff, and I applaud them!!! but you are pointless!!

8. Can you bathe your children and do their laundry before I do it for you!! You walk into the school, clean clothes, new shoes, nails done, looking a HOTTMESS, but you are clean, and you poor innocent kid is filthy, dirty feet and hair, with clothes that dont fit!! Seriously once in your pathetic life put your kids first!!

9. Please stop talking to your equally irritating friends about your life so that we can all hear it!! I dont care that you just got a new piercing on your cockdock!! REALLY I DONT!! I also dont care that your aunt sara's sisters cousin is working "at the walmart". Its great that she has a job, maybe you should consider it!! TALK QUIETER BECAUSE I WOULD LIKE TO KEEP MY LUNCH DOWN!!

10.There is a reason I dont talk to you...its not that I think I am better than you, its that I dont like you!! No matter how much you bragg about your piece of shit car and about how fast it is, or your knock of coach, Im not gonna like you!! I have a NEW SUV and A REAL COACH PURSE, I have a right to bragg but I dont!! If you insist on bragging do it outside or at the next family picnic!!

11. Please dont bitch that your man is cheating to the whole school!! EVER THINK WHY HE IS CHEATING!! COULD IT BE YOU!!?? HMMM thats a thought!! Stop putting your business out on front street...it makes you look more pathetic!!

12. Control your kids in the store PLEASE!! If little Sara Jane (example) wants a toy and you tell her no and she screams to the top of her lungs. Do something, preferably in the bathroom or something!! ALSO I don't have a problem tripping your kids when they hall ass by me, screaming and acting like little asses and you proceed to do NOTHING!! YEAH I KNOW...."Oh Heather that is so mean, how could you trip a kid?" I think "Someone has to do it!!"

I think I am finished for now..until tomorrow, I'm sure someone will add themselves to the list LOL